Monday, January 24, 2011

State of the Ghostwriter Address...

In light of President Obama's upcoming State of the Union Address tomorow evening, I thought I'd fill you guys in on what's on my mind since I haven't blogged in a week. Bare with me as this is somewhat of an impromptu post, but I'm sitting here at home having thoughts of moving west again.

All signs point to LA, yet I haven't had that 1 event that makes me pack up my shit & leave. But I'm getting closer & I've got a little nest egg set aside - guess I'm just waiting on that critical moment when I have to decide if that's what I'm gonna do.

But all things considered, no reason to hang my head at the current moment here on the home front. Work is work & social life is.... well, social. So I guess I'm well within the status quo, but I do still have that inner-feeling of unfulfillment that keeps me on the edge of my seat, constantly awaiting the next great opportunity.

Granted they're obviously bigger things to worry about in life, so it's not an issue I sit & kick myself about, but an issue nonetheless. My solution? Ok, I'll admit it, I pretty much have no methodology or approach employed - I'm wingin' it. If someone asked me what I thought I'd be doing in 10 years, I'd have no idea what I'd tell 'em & considering the systematic, routined person I've become, that scares me.

I don't quite know my path in life right now, what I do know is that my eyes are wide open. Meaning I'll either have a front-row seat for that astonishing "ah-ha" moment, or a 1st-hand account of the man that never was. In either instance, I'm generally a private & easy-going kind of dude, so the occasional bleakness of my inner-thoughts would never spill into the outside world aside from the text you read before you.

At the end of the day, I'm thankful that I'm here & I appreciate every moment (even the lesser ones) of this life I lead. You know why? Cuz I don't want to be miserable. It's neither the person I am, nor the man I'd prefer to be remembered as. Ok, I'm starting to I feel like I'm in an AA meeting, so I think I'll spare myself from further judgement, lol... <-- "Thanks for allowing me to share."

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