Sunday, May 8, 2011

Goin Dark...

The dictionary defines 'going dark' as follows: (1) To disappear; become suddenly unavailable or digitally out of reach for an undefined period of time. (2) Term used in the intelligence world, meaning to go silent (not speak or communicate with anyone for a period of time), a way of protecting oneself from people who would cause harm.

Ok, a little about me... I do NOT handle inconsistency well, lol. Neither in casual friendships, nor romantic courtships have I ever appreciated the up & down, here & there nature of such relationships. At this point, I've grown impatient & rather than wait on people to exercise a little tact, I'm just goin dark on their asses at the stroke of midnight. In doing so, I'll be realigning my priorities & gettin back to doing me.

It'll be an interesting challenge to see how long I'm willing to remain dark this go-round. But my best folks know how to reach me (even during times like this), so I'm not the least bit concerned about losing touch with those who ultimately mean the most to me.

It gets pretty intense whenever I decide to do this from time to time. Typically it involves avoiding most gatherings or parties, not updating social networking websites, switching the cell phone to airplane mode (i.e - disabling data/notifications, cellular signals, email/sms message delivery & instant messaging), so on & so forth. Keeping to myself is the only remedy I can come up with whenever the people around me stop making sense.

Though disappearing the way that I do at times would be considered an extreme measure by some, it's a necessary action at times. Generally speaking, I enjoy company of others, but when effectively backed into a corner by actions or inactions of others, its pretty easy to withdraw from everyone & remain in solitude. As it turns out, I'm rather adept at entertaining myself, lmao.

But seriously, you can call it self-absorbed, introverted, or whatever - the fact that I'm comfortable befriending myself remains a plus in my eyes & I'm in no way clear on why I'm supposed to feel apologetic about it either...

"What a commentary on civilization, when being alone is being suspect; when one has to apologize for it, make excuses, hide the fact that one practices it – like a secret vice."

~Anne Morrow Lindbergh


  1. There is nothing wrong with taking time out for yourself. Just don't say away too long. I do this often, my friends say I'm true to my name when I go M.I.A.

  2. Lol, I know right? Time away from it all is always a healthy thing.